My life in dashes. :)

oh, it's "ber" month already. I already smell sweet cold holiday air and sumptuous food to satisfy my famish.
anyway, i haven't updated my blog for ages. (busy or just lazy?). I've been hypnotized by tumblr. I envy those people who can write their thoughts effortlessly while I'm stuck with the blinking cursor. winking at me, endlessly.
moreover, i just had my new camera. Canon Ixus. (Can't afford DSLR, yet)



and i took pictures like crazyyyy. :)
well, i admit, i am not that pro in taking pictures.

but I'm extremely good in capturing memories. in my heart.
(now, that's cheezy.)

Somewhere over the teacher's table

As a kid, I dreamt of being a journalist, to scribble my thoughts and to take the pleasure out of writing. My soul needs pen and paper to conquer the world. But it didn’t materialize. Sooner, when I was a sophomore, Fictitiously, I imagined myself being a NUN. Oh yes. Believe it. I was heartbroken. And the only resort I have is convent and rosaries. Nonetheless, you have to serve God wholeheartedly. Not just because you're being dumped by a useless guy.

Come over, College. I took up I.T(Information Technology). Fascinated with the wonders of bits and processors. I survived. But something's missing. I don't know. I just feel empty.

After 3 jobs I don't really like. Data Operator. Supervisor. Web Article Editor.

I end up being a TEACHER.
Of all the jobs that I ever imagined. Teaching isn't included.
But life is pretty weird sitcom. (Which I don't find it funny at all.) I accepted the fact that I am now an EDUCATOR.

Oh gosh. It gives me shiver.

Teaching? Like a roller-coaster. I have this ups and downs. It's a love-hate relationship. You have to be selfless in this kind of job. Amidst of colds, coughs and laziness, you have to think of your student's welfare. You are working 24/7. You need to see their progress. And not just like a 8-5 session teacher.

You're the shock absorber.
You're the confidante.
You're the crying shoulder.
You're the surrogate parent.

It's the most unrecognized job. Underrated. Unappreciated.
But with these responsibilities. Those hard work.

It's Priceless.

There's no Einstein nor Plato nor Confucius without a Teacher.
top that!

Day 2- Letter for your Crush

Dear Crush,

Nako. dapat hindi na crush kasi boyfriend na kita. haha :)) pero dahil ikaw pa rin ang crush ko kahit "tayo" na.. Lagi mo kasi akong pinapakilig at pinapasaya na parang first time lang kitang nakita at makasama. at kahit na 60 years old na tayo, You will always be my BIGGEST CRUSH! :D

love,
your forever admirer

Day 1 - Letter for your Bestfriend

Dear Joyce Lyn,

You were always annoyed when i call you "bebe" and when i endlessly tickle your tummy. You always hate it. but you keep on laughing hard. :) Sometimes we fight a lot. over shallow reasons like food and take-turns on the computer table. but we do have marvelous memories particularly on books, sleeping on the same bed with your feet on my face, sight-seeing, bear hugs and infinite teases.

You are the best sister i never had. We have this 10-year age gap,I'm 23, you're 13. but you have a mind, more mature than a 20-year-old woman. You are unbelievably smart. We can talk about anything. and i always felt bad, when someone at your school, insecurely bullies you. but you are a fighter. You stand up for what's right. :)

I remember when you were 9, you told me that when you grow up, you want to be "me".. because you love the way i am. the simple "ate".. I was touched to the point that i can always relive that moment.

We're together for 12 years. the day you were born, and up to the day that you were busy fixing your things because you will now have a new slate with your parents in Laguna.. You know what, i cried for days. I dread the idea of not having a little sister at home. The one who amuses me with her witty ideas and quotable quotes. The one i am sharing my music and books with. The one who become my blood sister. Although we're just cousins, i know, we are connected. We are connected by love. Love of a sister.

This letter is supposed to be for a bestfriend, but after sorting the ideas and memories i had with my lovely friends, I'm strucked by the idea to chose you. Because you've been with me always. sharing the happiness and even the loneliest times with each other.

Jojoy, we may not see each other always. I can get to see you for only holidays, but remember, that i am missing you always.. and ate loves you so much.. You will always be my little baby. :) I LOVE YOU! :D

Someone

I need a man who makes me think of countless reasons and ways to let him stay in my arms, because when he's right here beside me, it's as if everything's okay. That nothing else matters but ME and HIM.
I need somebody who makes me miss him so much that I would hurriedly buy his perfume and spray it on my fluffy pillows so when I go to bed at night, I can hug the pillow tight and wish that it was really him that I am hugging.

I need somebody who make my heart skip a beat, everytime he smiles at me. Who makes me feel secure and safe that I pour my heart on him, unburdening secrets that I've kept for a long time. And having him tell me that It's okay and that I can have a new slate, that I can leave everything behind in the past and contemplate on what lies ahead of us.

I need someone who makes me listen more to a mushy, oversentimental love songs on my iPod, Someone whom I pray for every night before I go to sleep and for even while I am sleeping, I still want to be with him.

Someone I can finally look straight in the eye, without the remorse and deceit, and tell him that I love him. And get this tinkling feeling inside that tells me it's factual.

And now. I have found my someone. I have found my all. And I've been wanting to say this for a long time and I think there's no better timing than now.. So here I am professing, asking you, my someone..

"Will you stay forever?"

:)

30 Letter in 30 Days :)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

hey, i'm sick and i hate it.

coarsed voice.
dry cough.
and some stupid headache.
i was bed-ridden for a day.

the day before the "flu attack":

One sunny day, I was enjoying my lecture for 8:00-9:00 a.m, appalled by the feedback of my students. they're quite good. They absorbed my "blah-blah-blah" lecture.. I thought, i'd be a superwoman for a day, but i was completely wrong. I am just a HUMAN. napapagod din. Then came my 3:00 - 4:00 p.m schedule. Fuck! I had a hard time breathing, and i just have to conceal it so that i can go on to my lecture.

after my 5:00 p.m class, It rained. I got wet. Voila!
FML!

hello, FLU!

~now, I'm in my room. trying to get rid off this sickness by writing. There's a lot of food here. but i think, I've lost my appetite. Damn!

Bakit kaya kung kelan ka nagkakasakit at hindi pwedeng kumain, saka naman inooferran ka ng masarap na pagkain?

but the good thing is:

i am able to rest. slacking for the nth level. (i miss vacation!).

and for tomorrow,

i will be on my 8-5 schedule again.
teaching.
and hopefully, i won't get sick. again.

dahil sabi ng clusivol.
Bawal Magkasakit.

tinopak si lynet part I

oh crap. My spectacle's broken.. sa lahat ng oras na pwedeng masira ang aking pinakamamahal na eyeglasses eh sa mismong quiz pa. kamalas! anyway, it has been a long time nung nagpost ako ng matino. Wala naman nangyari sa aking matino..

Nagprocrastinate = Nagreview at gumawa ng project study before the deadline. very good!

Naging GLEEK = oo na. crush ko na si finn.. at hindi ko feel si quinn. at sana maging special guest ako dun. NAPAKALAKING ASA!

FY! FACEBOOK = nakakasira ka ng buhay! haha..


Meron din maganda. nagphotoshoot ako kasama pinsan ko. :) yizz. HAHAHAHA!






I AM A NERD.. I totally admit that. but exchanging my sweat shirts, glasses and chucks for a flirtatious make-up and cute girly dresses.. It's kinda ODD.. because, it is not me! It's not my personality. but somehow, i enjoyed it. that once in my geeky life, naranasan kong magphotoshoot. :) but it doesn't mean na model ako. THAT WILL NEVER EVER HAPPEN..

because the REAL ME is far better. and let's leave it that way. :)

I feel bad. :(

dysmenorrhea, PMS, birth pains, mood swings. Girls do suffer physical pain. a lot. Guys? they are living a good life. no pains. no mood swings. unfair. So, guys out there, take care of your girl. pamper her. love her with all your heart. and don't ever hurt us, okay?

new lynet 1.0

They bullied me.
Judged me.
Told me that i'm ugly.
i am a useless crap.

BACK THEN.

but now.
i am full of life.
wiser.
some people think i am beautiful inside and out.

and HAPPY.

so, why should i waste my time with their empty judgment?

Bits 4.0

:) blogsphere. I am here again.Alive and Kickin'.Trying to revive my writing muse.and now, i have to vow. that i'll not skip blogging. [even mundane things. it is still considered as blogging.]

so what really happened this past few months.
I'll start with..

JANUARY: Okay. same same. I bought some 2010 planner. Just to organize my schedule and my life. ayun, may pasulat-sulat pa ako ng mga new year's resolution, which obviously, didn't materialize.. Slacker, indeed. I don't know if i will consider 2010 as my lucky year, wala pang halfway. and it's a mix of different emotions eh. Sometimes, i do feel that I am fulfilled, and the next day, I feel crap. Am i getting pointless?

FEBRUARY: parang dumaan lang yung month na to. haha :) i can't elucidate further.

MARCH: It is a crucial month. Graduation nila..Exam month. I feel so stressed with this month. haha. Lahat naman siguro.

but, you know what, i really have the feeling that i may quit this job. personal reasons? no.. ako naman kasi yung taong laging may middle-life dilemma. haha. it's ironic, i'm not even at the middle-age. Fickle-minded? pwede. Di ko mahanap yung talagang passion eh. parang may kulang.

APRIL: isa na namang crucial month. but a happy one.
because i get to spend my time with Erick. which is a good thing for both of us. I really appreciate his efforts to make me laugh amidst the crazy, roller-coaster ride in my career. I think it's a love month.. :)

APRIL 13, 2010: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JED!

and here's a message for my best guy friend:

DEAR JED,
You are now DOMINATINGGGG!! :) I'm the one thankful for your birthday. because i have you as my bestfriend. I have you as one of my precious gifts. so, ROCK THE WORLD..like you do in DotA..

LOVE,
Your cutest friend! [ahem]
Lynet. :)

Life, is much like a book.. and you must read me. AGAIN..

~sometimes, people just don't get it. i am different. but that's not an excuse for you to hurt me..